Sad Girl Intro
I feel like I haven’t been truly happy since my ex and I broke up 6 years ago, which is a really scary thing for me to admit. Not to say I’ve been miserable this whole time – I’m fine, but I don’t feel that deep, down-to-my-core happiness. I feel like something is missing. Most of the time I feel okay, but sometimes it hits me like a swift bat to the stomach, completely knocking the wind out of me. I drive home from a bad date and my whole body feels heavy. I’m single. I’m lonely. I can’t seem to make anyone stick around for very long. I’m 27 and have only had 1 serious relationship and a string of dating disasters that followed it.
A lot of people will be quick to say that I probably won’t find that sort of happiness until I’m completely happy with myself. And while I believe that to be partially true, I also need to call bullshit. Being loved is important to me and I feel incomplete without it. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with saying I want and need love in my life to feel whole. It’s not like I’ve been jumping into time-passing relationships to make myself feel better; I’ve been alone for the better part of the last 6 years.
This blog will be my journey through all the things I have experienced over the last 6 years and what I’m experiencing now. Ghosts, liars, virgins, boys with girlfriends…I feel like I’ve seen it all.
My stories will be raw and outspoken, much like myself. I’m not one to sugarcoat and I won’t always be polite in portraying the things that happened to me. I’m more than willing to admit when I was the bad guy, but I’m also going to call out the guys who treated me like shit. The boys who slept with me and bailed, the boys who lied, the boys who cheated on their girlfriends with me….I’m coming for you. The names will be changed, but the experiences are real.
My motivation for this blog? Well, there’s a few things behind it. I want to remember the good dates, laugh at the bad ones, and learn from my mistakes. I want to move on and forgive the assholes who treated me poorly. I want to hold onto some sort of hope that there’s someone out there for me.
So maybe Sad Girl Blog is part memoir, part coping mechanism. Whatever it is, I’m excited to see where it goes.
Sad Girl Song – Crazy Talk by Erin Rae and The Meanwhiles
I know that when you’re young and unhappy, it’s hard to see things might change. Especially when all you can remember is how it’s always felt that way. Don’t give in to the crazy talk.